my expanding fan base

yeah more half-assed self congratulatory blogging about myself, what the fuck else are these things for anyway 

so i can’t sleep and for want of anything better to do i googled myself (as you do…) and came across a page for some 16 year old emo/goth living in melbourne who as part of her profile has listed:

“Favourite poet or writer: i have a few: E.A Poe, Michael Hier and Fido hehe”

and so i move one step closer to becoming a household name….

Having a look at what I have missed

I have been afflicted with an attack of late nite insomnia and so i have been reading the blog. and i feel so sad at what I haven’t been reading or paying attention to over the last few months. i never really appreciated properly the impact of my wierd working arrnagements (ie the time at Olympic Dam) on M. it must have been a horrible and lonely time. I am sorry.

 J

night sweats

last night i awoke suddenly at about 3:30am absolutely convinced that both of my legs had violently snapped off at the knee. all logic and physical evidence to the contrary it still took me a full minute to stop freaking out.

then about two hours later i again awoke, this time thinking there was someone in the house. i opened my eyes and was sure i could see a woman standing beside the bed glowing black (i know that doesn’t make sense but it did at the time and i don’t know how to describe it better). again logic tells me there was nothing there but still took a few seconds to stop panicking wildly.

very, very wierd and disturbing.

weapon of choice

can’t sleep.

J is off in the desert and the bed is way too empty without her presence.

i want to play SWANS records at extreme volume.

“then we’ll know, then we’ll breathe”